Look, I'm not good at admitting I'm wrong and I hate it when people are right about me being a dick sometimes, but I've been thinking that I have to man up and say this to get it off my chest and at least try to be a better person on the Internet. I was having my doubts until I was browsing 9gag this morning and I saw a post that, I think, explains a big part of my apology. Here it is:
I've realized that most of the complaints against me are valid and that I haven't been reflecting on my behavior as much as I should. And even though some people will fail to see me grow from a toxic kid to a member of the community that people actually like, I won't mind.
I'm going to admit, I think the number one reason I've been such a pain in the ass is because I'm stubborn as fuck. I'm not going to blaim this on what I'm about to say, but stubborn kind of runs in my family. I always used to think that my father was stubborn as fuck and couldn't admit when he was wrong but I realize now that I'm guilty of this too. As they say, like father like son. As a result I've failed to admit when I was wrong and when I was being a dick on multiple occasions on this server, and how I've made myself seem dumb a lot of the time. That's one part of my faults.
The second part is the my cockiness. I'm not going to talk much about this because I don't have much to explain. Long story short, I can be cocky as hell without realizing it. I remember that one post where I was giving someone some PvP tips (not saying any names although I don't think it matters that much) and seemed like I was overrating myself quite a bit. Looking at that post now I realize why I received so much hate. I'd like to just say it was never my intention to make people think that I thought I was the best or some shit like that.
The third fault is my ability to get triggered really quick. I'm not going to talk about this much because I have no way of explaining myself or giving excuses. I could become downright butt hurt from a post that wasn't even meant to be taken seriously, and I apologize for being a dick in arguments to whoever was in one with me.
There are probably a lot of things I have done that I haven't covered on this post but I'm guessing you guys get the general idea. Also, it came to my attention that i really needed to get this off my chest after I received negative feedback on the TBH posts. Most people saw me as a stubborn kid who doesn't really realize when he's wrong and when he does, he doesn't admit it. Some people saw me as a good person in the core but that I tried to hard to fit in. I've realized now that in order to fit in I must be myself and try to not be a douche. Anyways, thanks a lot to anyone who took the time to read this, and even though I honestly think most people that I have pissed off before this post either won't read this or give a shit about this post, I'm glad t o get it off my chest and finally be able to move on.
@Tiger Stop. You've stated yourself that you dislike when people do that on your threads, yet you're doing that exact same thing here? That's hypocritical. You've just come back from a web tempban recently, don't get into further trouble.
OP: It takes guts to make an apology to the entire community and to share personal details & thoughts. Personally, I've never had a problem with you even though we haven't talked that much, but you've always seemed like a nice guy to me anyway. I hope you've learned from your mistakes and that you actually do change. Good luck! o/
Tbh I think you are a kind person. Everyone has their flaws since no one is perfect. Honestly, I have only seen you angry once, but you managed to calm down a little.
As Junr said, nobody's perfect. You can be cocky, sure. It's in the same way that I can be bratty, childish and annoying. We are our own worst critic. There's nothing left to forgive, as you've already apologised and that takes bravery that I doubt many people are capable of. All that's left is for you to forgive yourself. Stop beating yourself up about this; we all make mistakes, all that matters is that you learn from them.
You keep mentioning all of your negative aspects, well, how about concentrating on your positive aspects? =)
@TwentyOneTiggers: Enough. If you're just going to behave like a belittling child, then stop commenting. He apologised, that's enough for me, just as it should be enough for you.
As Junr said, nobody's perfect. You can be cocky, sure. It's in the same way that I can be bratty, childish and annoying. We are our own worst critic. There's nothing left to forgive, as you've already apologised and that takes bravery that I doubt many people are capable of. All that's left is for you to forgive yourself. Stop beating yourself up about this; we all make mistakes, all that matters is that you learn from them.
You keep mentioning all of your negative aspects, well, how about concentrating on your positive aspects? =)
@TwentyOneTiggers: Enough. If you're just going to behave like a belittling child, then stop commenting. He apologised, that's enough for me, just as it should be enough for you.
Sometimes I forget how much of a good person you are.
We all make mistakes once in while. That is humanity. There is no human in this world who has no flaw of any kind.
Good thing about making mistakes: -You learn from mistakes
Bad thing about making mistakes: -You have to accept the consequences (if there is any)
I have never seen you to be angry. You are a really nice person who always responds "hi" when greeted by someone. And you are very decent at PvPing. I really appreciate the fact that you have admitted your mistake and decided to move forward. Don't listen to people who discourage you. Do what you think is right...and if you are unsure and you got no one to ask, make a post in Avicus. Ok?
I hope to see you in game! Bye! Oh and I forgot to say this "Apology accepted!"
Never had any dispute with you but well done for writing this sevo. Remember this post is just the start, you will really need to make an effort if you want to improve yourself as a person
Never had any dispute with you but well done for writing this sevo. Remember this post is just the start, you will really need to make an effort if you want to improve yourself as a person
First step to fixing a problem is realizing you have one. People will say "oh, it was only over a screen" buy tbh when it is in front of a community you've been in and known for years, it can be pretty difficult. Respect for saying it publicly. As much as that's a good first step, words mean a lot, but are lost without actions. We also need to see change and words don't solve everything. Good luck.
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