If you have 5 minutes, PLEASE read this by FightToWin7431 January 7, 2016 at 12:01 PM UTC
Hi. Only the people who have been with Avicus from the start will remember me, so you're probably wondering who I am. I was a senior mod on this server since it was MC Zone and left close to the start to focus on college and getting a job and just because I was really down about my life and how I'd done nothing to be truly proud of and how I wanted to turn things around. Well... I did. To a certain extent. I got high grades in college, was unemployed for 6 months which was horrible but eventually turned things round, got a job, made good money, got an amazing car (a Mazda 3 hatchback) and things started to look well for me over the new year.But I'm not here to talk about my success, because I completely ruined everything last night.
I was driving home at like 1am (I work til late) and the roads seemed fine, wet, but fine. Then just the next thing I knew I was sliding off the road at about 50mph and all I had time for was to think about how this could be the end of my life. I crashed into a concrete wall stopping cars from going into an embankment, knocked the wall clean out, flipped over and the next thing I knew the car was on its side (my side) in the middle of the road (but I thought I was in a ditch at the time and that no one would find me). I rang the police (god knows how I got the signal cause I was in the middle of nowhere) and climbed up and out the car through the passenger side and it was only then I realised there was barely a scratch on me. The car, however, was completely gone. The engine had been completely ripped out and debris was scattered all over the road. The police came, breathalysed me (zero, I'm not bloody stupid) and took my details and I was checked over by an ambulance and warmed up then my dad came to pick me up. The car's been written off and taken to a scrapyard. I only had that car 3 months, it was second hand but had only done 40,000 miles (I had only done 3000) and it was my pride and joy. I have no idea how much its going to cost in insurance but whether I get a new cheap car or not the Mazda is on a 5-year finance deal so for the next 5 years I'm going to be paying off a car which isn't mine anymore.
But I'm not here for sympathy either, cause it was me that fucked up, and no one else. I'm here to just get one message across. I was well known back when I was a part of Avicus for making long boring motivational speeches about "don't waste your life" but last night has made me realise something even more important.
Don't take ANYTHING FOR GRANTED ever again.
The fact that I didn't go into the embankment is a miracle. The fact that I could get out my car without a scratch is an even bigger one. Someone up there must like me, cause if anything had happened to me that would have been it. I would have left this life with no story, nothing to be proud of, only a handful of people would know or indeed care, and everything that I've worked towards in life would have been for nothing. But I was given a second chance, I could go home and hug my family which I never do, stroke my cats again, and finally tell my best friend who I've been mad at for some stupid reason and ignored for weeks how much she actually meant to me.
But not everyone gets that chance, and I found out that it doesn't matter how okay everything seems, or how good you are at anything. Something can go wrong at any given time, when you least expect it. So, just for me, if you have anything you want to say to anyone, if you're sorry for something but still too mad at that person to say it, or if you miss them, love them, want them to know anything, just fucking say it. Cause if you miss that chance, that's it. They'll never know, and what could be will never happen. So stop reading this, and go and do it. Please.
I just wish it didn't take this for me to realise that.
Blueish_ January 7, 2016 at 1:01 PM UTC
No offence, but i don't think a minecraft server forum is where you should be telling this story. sorry about your car thoughFightToWin7431 January 7, 2016 at 1:01 PM UTC
Do you really think I'm in the right mental frame of mind to think about that right now,Blueish? Some of my old friends are on here. They know what I'm like.Javipepe January 7, 2016 at 1:01 PM UTC
Very interesting and indeed motivational message you sent right there, I thank you for that as opposed to all the forum circlejerk I'm used to stare at. As you say sometimes you realize how everything can change in matter of seconds, and how many things you should have done if those had been your last ones.I don't actually know you / remember you, but I'm incredibly glad you are ok and well, sorry for your car (thank god for him though!)
Stay safe mate :)
Cyclops January 7, 2016 at 1:01 PM UTC
Hey Fight, it's Roberto (aka Robo), you interviewed me back then, you probably remember haha.Anyways, I've actually had this kind of mental thought for a while now, and being a kid still, I tend to see others take things for granted a lot, without knowing if something will happen to them in the next day, or the next few minutes.
Good thread, I like it 8) Glad to see you turned out unharmed from such a horrible accident.
You should come here more often mate.
Thomas_Shoes January 7, 2016 at 1:01 PM UTC
OkIron January 7, 2016 at 1:01 PM UTC
I hope you can recover from this event, and make this a new chapter in your life! You are quite the legend in these "halls...." LETS FIND BILLY (Apricot)!!!!!1Cyclops January 7, 2016 at 1:01 PM UTC
Very interesting and indeed motivational message you sent right there, I thank you for that as opposed to all the forum circlejerk I'm used to stare at. As you say sometimes you realize how everything can change in matter of seconds, and how many things you should have done if those had been your last ones.
I don't actually know you / remember you, but I'm incredibly glad you are ok and well, sorry for your car (thank god for him though!)
Stay safe mate :)
SAVAGE.
MasterProX January 7, 2016 at 2:01 PM UTC
I'm fairly certain you've never heard even a reference to my name — I had started regularly playing on the server only after MCZone had been obsoleted in favor of the Avicore update, and merely begun to consider integrating myself into the community many months later — but I'm relieved, truly, to hear you made it out of that trauma relatively unscathed. Was it primarily the slickness of the road, or a trivial oversight of yours gone unbridledly wrong? I'm practically "old" now, and reflections like yours, from people who've lived longer than me such as yourself, make me anxious (though reasonably so).
Don't beat yourself up over not having taken your advice to heart before learning it firsthand. I'd say probably the majority of people end up learning things "the hard way"; it's human nature. Now that you're all the wiser, become a better you — as you said, not everyone gets a second chance, and those who do may as well have been randomly picked out by the endless universe.
Glitchaye January 7, 2016 at 2:01 PM UTC
Ur still a god to me regardless of what happensBloodoh January 7, 2016 at 3:01 PM UTC
valio berga compa :(ClubberNugget January 7, 2016 at 3:01 PM UTC
Sucks that happened to you:(The worst thing is you weren't even being reckless, I see other teens reving their engines and flooring it across parking lots, his buddies cheering him on, I'm walking to my car just shaking my head, these guys are going to get themselves killed, they aren't taking it for granted at all. I don't know you personally but I don't think you are as stupid as the guys I'm talking about, so I'm sorry it happened to you. Good message, don't hesitate, anyone can attain their dreams if they don't give up.
Woah I'm not usually this deep XD
Sevoo January 7, 2016 at 3:01 PM UTC
I'm pretty damn sure that you don't know who the fuck I am, but I've heard of you. I've never really seen you ingame but from the looks of it you were one of the best guys on this server, ever. If you really are as nice and kind as people say you were, I have no reason to believe why you wouldn't come out of an accident like that and live to tell the story. I know, I know, that's not realistic, but from the looks of it and as you said it, I really do believe someone up there is looking out for you. I wish you the best of luck, and I'd be surprised if you don't do anything your proud of in your life!And trust me, this is coming from one of the least deep people you're ever going to see xP
DaFrozenBlaze January 7, 2016 at 3:01 PM UTC
:/It's nice to see you on the forums though
pope_panda January 7, 2016 at 3:01 PM UTC
hey i have that carvoidloop January 7, 2016 at 4:01 PM UTC
:(Cheer up man :)
awesome_apricot January 7, 2016 at 4:01 PM UTC
Holy shit hayden!!! SKYPEEEEE!!RIP_Avicus January 7, 2016 at 4:01 PM UTC
Wow, inspirational... Glad you're ok, hope everything turns out alright. <3Capenage January 7, 2016 at 4:01 PM UTC
Good that you made it :)Goodnighht January 7, 2016 at 5:01 PM UTC
Wow, it's been a long time since I've seen you, we never really talked, or anything. Idk if you remember me ;p (micahb222000) Glad you're okay! That sounds so scary, and sorry about the car. :(AtditC January 7, 2016 at 5:01 PM UTC
I remember your name from 2 years ago, when I checked the retired staff list...Sorry about your car... :/
hasl January 7, 2016 at 5:01 PM UTC
Shocker read, I felt happy that you sorted everything out, but then the inevitable happened and I feel so sorry for you, I can't express how sorry I am for you and it's fine telling us your 'open-your-eyes' incident, but don't live in the past; live the present and get back out there and get stuck in life, all the great, exciting and sometimes sad times.You probably don't know me, but I'm an ex-senior, PeachyYas is Rinn by the way.
Biixerv January 7, 2016 at 5:01 PM UTC
I'm fairly certain you've never heard even a reference to my name — I had started regularly playing on the server only after MCZone had been obsoleted in favor of the Avicore update, and merely begun to consider integrating myself into the community many months later — but I'm relieved, truly, to hear you made it out of that trauma relatively unscathed. Was it primarily the slickness of the road, or a trivial oversight of yours gone unbridledly wrong? I'm practically "old" now, and reflections like yours, from people who've lived longer than me such as yourself, make me anxious (though reasonably so).Don't beat yourself up over not having taken your advice to heart before learning it firsthand. I'd say probably the majority of people end up learning things "the hard way"; it's human nature. Now that you're all the wiser, become a better you — as you said, not everyone gets a second chance, and those who do may as well have been randomly picked out by the endless universe.
>is 17
>mfw
FightToWin7431 January 7, 2016 at 6:01 PM UTC
Thanks for the support :/ I'll come out of this a better person, I'm just more gutted about the car than anything else. I'm still trying to piece together what happened, cause the roads were absolutely fine before and my car was amazing at handling roads like those, i've never slid in it before and it could detect if roads were icy and warn me, which it didn't then. So i don't know why it happened, and I can't remember the few seconds before the crash but I was going nowhere near the speed limit. I don't know if it was my fault or not, hopefully I'll find out what happened. Thanks for the posts from people I've never met before. You guys are the exact reason I wanted to post this.zero9178 January 7, 2016 at 6:01 PM UTC
The legend has spoken_Mx_ January 7, 2016 at 7:01 PM UTC
Woah - This definitely isn't your average forum post. That's a great message your getting across. I hope you're okay, I've never met you personally, but you seem like a great person. Good luck!GrapeSmoothie January 7, 2016 at 9:01 PM UTC
Glad to see your are ok.BoldAndBrash January 7, 2016 at 9:01 PM UTC
I was a random back when you were staff, so you wouldn't know me, but I've heard a lot about you! I wish you luck. :)Myworld6 January 7, 2016 at 9:01 PM UTC
I'm glad that you're okay! I hope that everything turns out okay for you. =)Coco_stag January 7, 2016 at 9:01 PM UTC
COME BACKMidnightstorm January 7, 2016 at 9:01 PM UTC
You have me in tears. You probably don't know who I am, but this message really got to me. I am so glad that you're okay. It is so amazing how you got out almost perfectly; you must be on this earth for something, something important. Remember that, and thank you for sharing this story. Stay safe. (:FrozenSolstice January 7, 2016 at 10:01 PM UTC
Great message you're trying to put out. Some people won't understand, but hey, worth a shot.I'm glad to hear you're alright, and I hope something like that doesn't happen again.
Regarding your post about how you didn't remember seconds before the crash, that's fine, it's just shock. I understand how frightening those situations can be, so I'm glad you got out fine. If you ever want to talk, add me on Skype. It's my MC username.
Good luck! And see you wherever we may see you next.
FrostedCupcakez January 7, 2016 at 10:01 PM UTC
Hey Fight, not sure if you remember me. But I just want to say that I'm glad that you're okay.The message you've put out is quite inspirational, and not a people may understand that but thank you for mentioning it. After reading this post, it's kind of made me think a bit more.. Which in this case, is a good thing.
Let me know if you ever need to talk or complain (whatever you need really...). I'm here for you.
Best of luck <3
Okiba January 7, 2016 at 10:01 PM UTC
Rip car 8(Hope everything goes well for you.
piratewithgun January 7, 2016 at 10:01 PM UTC
How did you slide off the road at 50mph??Vobaseball12 January 7, 2016 at 11:01 PM UTC
Wow. Very inspirational story.I know this may be hard to hear, but don't worry about your car. It's a machine, not a human. Yes, I know all the money is going out now, but money is nothing when you think about it. Your friends, family and your health is more important. A human > a machine.
Glad to see you were not harmed.
Petlas January 7, 2016 at 11:01 PM UTC
We don't know eachother, but as the others have said, I'm glad to hear that all is well. I wish you the best for the future, and thank you for sharing your story with us. Stay safe.Cynthesis January 7, 2016 at 11:01 PM UTC
I don't know you, and I know it was a nice message you put out there. I can relate to you, a lot, in fact. I really haven't done anything productive in my life because I'd either be laughed at, fuck up, or both. In fact, I tell friends that I'm busy af and that's why I didn't apply, but truth be told, it's actually for the reason above. You can call me a giant pussy, but all I'm going to tell you is to tell me something I don't know.But this was a nice story to read, and sorry about you and your car :/
Stimulating January 8, 2016 at 12:01 AM UTC
Adding on to this, always have the strength to keep going, always try to find the silver lining in things, don't let grudges drag you down and live the best you can while you still can. Sometimes learning the hard way is the best way, though I'm kind of hesitant to say so, given the circumstance. If you need a friend, someone to talk to, I got your back. I was in a car crash over a month ago, so I can kind of relate. The car in front of us stopped, we managed to break in time, but the car behind us smashed into us at around 80km/h and pushed 5-6ft into the car in front of us. Our car had $15k worth of damage to it, barely off being totaled. After being hit from behind, another car hit us, meaning both my Dad and I's heads had snapped 3 times, giving both of us whiplash. I had put my hands out in front of me to stop me slamming into the dashboard, the 4 fingers on my left hand all got pretty badly hyper-extended and took a month of therapy to repair the tissue and tendon damage to my hand, but I realized how fortunate I was to even be living. My PC was also in the back, unscathed. Both my dad and I were ok and only one person went to the hospital with minor injuries (at least from my knowledge). Though this isn't about me, or a pity party for me, the point is we were all so fortunate that nothing worse happened. A lot of us are very fortunate. Be thankful for every day you're given, you are so lucky to be on this planet alone.JJTheGuy January 8, 2016 at 1:01 AM UTC
Hey Fight, glad to see you're ok. You probably don't remember me as I was a randy back when you were staff, but I remember you. Shame about your car, but great lesson mate. I can 100% relate, I've realized many times just how precious life is, and how fast it can end.Zedther January 8, 2016 at 1:01 AM UTC
I respect you Fight. This story made me tear up a bit, I hope you can recover without a hitch, we canall take a slice out of what you've been through. It's great to see you after so long, You know you may not be a legend to yourself, but you certainly are to us.
MLGtino January 8, 2016 at 1:01 AM UTC
I've learned a lot from you ever since I first met you. The same applies today.SamuelJacob9 January 8, 2016 at 1:01 AM UTC
Wow, I have never met you before, I have been on this server for 2 years, but I hope you are OK, stay safe mate :)JUBBINATOR January 8, 2016 at 2:01 AM UTC
:c your poor car. At least that's the only thing that's gotten messed up out of this situation, and you're still on a pretty okay footing.From wot you told me about your driving before, I'm fairly certain you were being really careful, and I hope it didn't turn out to be your fault if you do end up finding out.
My uncle, he got his car totalled too in a ditch, but he ended up dying and leaving behind his wife and kids. I'm glad you're alive and you didn't ever have to leave someone without saying goodbye or how much they mean to you and all that. Even more so that you weren't injured too terribly, as you can still keep working and you don't have to go through therapy and stuff, like my cousin's husband who messed up his leg pretty bad from colliding with a bus.
All This just means imo, no matter how bad it is, the universe wants you to keep at it, make your life wonderful and succeed. Otherwise why would it have given you this second chance? C:
FightToWin7431 January 8, 2016 at 2:01 AM UTC
Thanks Jubb. Been trying to get onto Skype all night to be able to catch up with you & Billy but forgotten my bloody password again and pretty much gave up :(BoldAndBrash January 8, 2016 at 2:01 AM UTC
Thanks Jubb. Been trying to get onto Skype all night to be able to catch up with you & Billy but forgotten my bloody password again and pretty much gave up :(
kycrafft January 8, 2016 at 3:01 AM UTC
Hey Fight, I'm not sure if you remember me, maybe not since it has been a while and I used to be only a little active in the community.It's so shocking that one moment you can have everything going for you and the next minute it's taken away. I'm thankful that you made it out unscathed and that you want to help the community you used to be such a big part of.
I've always looked up to you and respected you as a thoughtful person and one who understands life for what it is. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I would recommend the people in this thread that have offered their help. As much as I would like to give any help I can, I'm just not the best person for this. Thank you and I wish you luck in life.
ballzi January 8, 2016 at 10:01 PM UTC
Blur out the number plate?Nebbsy January 10, 2016 at 4:01 AM UTC
Sorry about your car man, hopefully you can get a new one. Or used one. Whatever works out in your price range I guess. I've only been here for about 14 months even though it says 2 years on my profile (10 month ban). But it's great you're okay. - Never heard of you. But that's really not the point.CocoaLatteSauce January 13, 2016 at 10:01 PM UTC
Long time no see Fight :) Glad you're okay.Jake41901 January 14, 2016 at 9:01 PM UTC
Thanks for the support :/ I'll come out of this a better person, I'm just more gutted about the car than anything else. I'm still trying to piece together what happened, cause the roads were absolutely fine before and my car was amazing at handling roads like those, i've never slid in it before and it could detect if roads were icy and warn me, which it didn't then. So i don't know why it happened, and I can't remember the few seconds before the crash but I was going nowhere near the speed limit. I don't know if it was my fault or not, hopefully I'll find out what happened. Thanks for the posts from people I've never met before. You guys are the exact reason I wanted to post this.